I've had anything I could honestly dream about, that I could really desire with my heart. I found it all. There is nothing left that I could say I really wanted, with any kind of sincerity.
So what is left?
This uneasy, nagging, itchy feeling that remains when the mind is forced to see that there is nothing, that will ever satisfy it, ever. There is no meaning, no purpose. What I did was see this, notice this feeling and then fall in the minds trap of continuing the search, it's so easy, so comfortable. Only when I couldn't find anything else that I wanted, was I forced to come to this conclusion.
I thought, since it doesn't matter. I might as well do what I really feel like doing. Which was just the minds way of taking control again. True freedom is found through learning to live, with this uncomfortable, uneasy, nagging, itchy feeling. Constantly, only when you accept it in every moment, every single moment, before every breath, before every action, before every thought. Only then can you claim freedom.
Only then will your actions no longer be born from avoidance and reaction. Only then can you live in full acceptance of what is.
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So what is left?
This uneasy, nagging, itchy feeling that remains when the mind is forced to see that there is nothing, that will ever satisfy it, ever. There is no meaning, no purpose. What I did was see this, notice this feeling and then fall in the minds trap of continuing the search, it's so easy, so comfortable. Only when I couldn't find anything else that I wanted, was I forced to come to this conclusion.
I thought, since it doesn't matter. I might as well do what I really feel like doing. Which was just the minds way of taking control again. True freedom is found through learning to live, with this uncomfortable, uneasy, nagging, itchy feeling. Constantly, only when you accept it in every moment, every single moment, before every breath, before every action, before every thought. Only then can you claim freedom.
Only then will your actions no longer be born from avoidance and reaction. Only then can you live in full acceptance of what is.
http://linesoftruth.blogspot.com
